Fatherhood

In '77 my aborted fetus 
was the apotheosis 
of my life as wanderer
from a woman's honeyed virginity 
to an older man's  savoir faire
going from that multi-colored Scream 
in Oslo to Rome's round  bright beam 
pouring over me from Hadrian's oculus 
from a laid-out foam mattress
in Amsterdam sleepless night fucking 
sucking not caring high on the wondrous 
wandering weed to downing a stein 
of local beer in Ludwig of Bavaria's 
mad castle on my 23d 69ing a buff Dane 
on the sand of the Sea of Corinth 
my first immersion in the Holy Land 
wandering sacred Delphi sailing Greek isles 
naked among the naked 
swimming in the blue Aegean

I am father of no one
wandering through all the levels 
of prejudice against a non-breeder
prejudice against my smarts in middle
school prejudice against my hots for
my girlfriend's brother prejudice against
my bedding a 16 year old girl at 24
prejudice against my love for a
reciter of Yeats and Keats he
the image of Don Quixote prejudice
against my living off the fat of my 
live-in girl-friend social worker prejudice 
against all my menages a trois ah
disdain for my black lover of Shakespeare
my oriental lover from Myanmar my teenage 
Zapotec lover in the Zócalo of Oaxaca
my Persian lover hard
in the redwoods of Russian River
prejudice against my wedding the 
lesbian cousin of Winston Churchill
Prejudice for marrying the Man 
from Tennessee  and most stabbing 
prejudice for my going old

"Are you his father
you look a lot alike" 
I love you through thick skin
love you cunts and pricks alike 
from Tōdai-ji in Nara where Chinese sages
in 700 gave gay sex and Buddhism to Japan
from the beaches of New South Wales 
lush with lounging pregnant marsupials
from the bottom of Argentina's blue glaciers
from the top of Earth's most massive mountain 
its cone shaped shadow pointing to infinity
I love you all I love you like
my very own
offspring 


Jack 2/14